i have an acute case of separation anxiety that is increasingly getting worse. this codependency isn't going to let up. i want to be held close, close enough to hear me breathe. i need to be needed. don't leave me alone to rot in my own self esteem.
it's moments like these when i realize that i am very much a teenager. my angst to go against the family's grain, the need to rebel. my sadness... tear stained pillows with blood stained sheets. it's all a recipe for this beautiful disaster of a life.
you see me at my happiest; you hold me at my most vulnerable, and kiss me at my most passionate moments of my life. i don't understand why i am so emotional and i'm sorry that you deal with it. i love you and it scares the hell out of me. to know that at any moment, my heart could break. shattered. it terrifies me to know that someone has that much power over me. it's a thrill and a warmth that fires my soul, driving it to want you with exceeding passion.
don't let go, don't walk away, don't forget what lies beneath this train-wreck. a beating heart full of desire and ambition to be with you.
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