i will spend my entire life trying to isolate the soul reason i compare current events to the minor ones of my past. why i flashback to that moment that left me thinking that it was my fault. that event must happen multiple times before i realize that, indeed, it wasn't my fault. it was the fault of someone much more "in the wrong" than myself. if i am to prosper with anyone, i need to let go and move on. this is what i am currently working on as a 'life goal'. it's not just for Jason, it's for anyone i've ever hated before because, well, recently i've learned that those who you've hated all along can become someone you grow to admire and confide in. those who have challenged you can show you how far you have traveled and grown. new hobbies must be created, new ideas challenged, new stability formed. a new era must occur. i think i'm on the right track. i am taking on a more organized lifestyle. i love it.